First, I’m probably going to keep going on the blog simply because I like to write. For those of you who would rather not have my ramblings clutter up your email box, it’s really simple to unsubscribe. Just scroll down to the bottom of the latest email and click on “Unsubscribe” and they should stop coming to you.
Next, all is STILL good. I’m eating…little bits but anything and everything. Stopped at Paneras for lunch today and had (of course) their mac and cheese. Had some oatmeal this morning. I’m obsessed with eating…remembering to have a mid morning and mid afternoon snack…It’s important because the feeding tube goes if I can show that I can maintain or gain weight. I honestly would prefer NOT to gain any weight…maintaining would be fine with me. I will need new clothes (better warn Jerry, huh?) Good thing Goodwill is down the road. POC…I don’t think I’ll ever have to worry about my weight again. Not that I’d recommend esophageal cancer as a weight loss program…there are better ways to do it.
I went over to Anderson for a massage today. It was wonderful. I just wanted to see what it would do for my back. The back ache is under control if I take the Tramadol on time and don’t try to stretch it or skip doses. But it is absolutely unbearable if I try to stretch it. Yesterday we were really late coming home from the MD Anderson and so in spite of fabulous news…I could eat, I was cancer free…all I could think of was my back. (which is why I never wrote the blog post until later on in the evening.) I was doubled over from the pain and the Tramadol didn’t kick in for a couple of hours after I took it because I had let it go too long. Today I was smarter…brought a pill with me…Didn’t need it….the massage took care of the back. I did take the Tramadol when I got home…didn’t want to push my luck. I’ve learned my lesson.
Jerry and I stopped to see Ron and Linda Orum after my massage. They live on the east coast of Florida…are friends of a friend of mine from yoga. Ron had a fifteen hour surgery for cancer last Monday….is doing great….We brought him pumpkin muffin tops from Paneras. He could eat but nothing appealed to him. Yesterday when we stopped in, he said the only thing he might enjoy were the muffin tops…Glad we got them. He looked terrific. Those guys at MD Anderson certainly know their stuff.
Quiet weekend ahead. Anne and Clark will be in Colorado with my sister, Paula. We’re not going to Flower Mound…a trip like that still seems overwhelming to me (I’m such a wimp) We ARE going to Flower Mound next Friday and will be there for almost two weeks. Anyway, Jerry and I will have a quiet Easter and yes, I’ll find some good chocolate and savor every bite.
I was complaining to Jerry this morning that I was having a “bad hair day”…It is coming back. It’s short but for some reason, earlier this morning it was sticking up every which way….like Einstein with a lot less hair. It’s white on the sides and dark brown/black on top….I hadn’t seen my real color in years..interesting. I’m not ready to go out without a scarf or wig…still looks pretty scary to me. I was going to have Jerry take a picture and post it but I just can’t do it. He thinks it looks fine but he thinks everything about me is fine. How on earth did I luck out when I found this man?
I just got Invention of Wings from the library for my Kindle. Can’t wait to read it. Have to finish my mystery/thriller first but then I can read it. And Clark loaned me a Henning Mankell. Love that guy. I have tons to read, that’s for sure.
Thanks, Tennley, for the quote below! Breast cancer, esophageal cancer…this better be it. I am so done with cancer.