All’s well here. Slowly but surely, I’m getting stronger. Going from ten minute walks to twenty minute walks, from doing part of yoga to hanging in there for the entire thirty minute session…still a couch potato but trying to sit rather than lie around ALL day. And, of course, totally loving the warmth, the sun, the beach, sitting on the lanai, visiting with friends. I haven’t been in the pool yet. Our water is very warm right now (solar heat) and I know I’d love it…maybe this weekend.
I was talking today to a good friend who was doing Reiki with me about how, for the first time in a long, long time, I’ve been really anxious. I wasn’t anxious in Houston…felt like everything was proceeding as it was supposed to. It was when I came home that the me who used to be and the me who is now was so evident. In Houston I just wasn’t so aware of how weak I had become, how compromised I was. Here, knowing what I used to be able to do and seeing what I can do now was a shock…even though I kept trying to prepare myself for it. Gain weight, get stronger…how hard can that be? Not as easy as I thought, that’s for sure.
So I try to be patient, try to relax and not worry, try to believe that I’m going to be strong enough and weigh enough for surgery. (Hate to flunk surgery prep!) Tori reassured me that I’m already strong enough…that many people are totally done in by treatment and I’ll be fine. How lucky I am to have wise friends in my life.
Margi came by yesterday with her bigger harp. I told her from now on, I’ll go to HER house. The bigger harp was even more powerful. I loved it. And another friend, Marian, stopped by in the afternoon with a Blizzard from Dairy Queen…Isn’t nice to be able to enjoy something like that and not worry about the calories! Delicious.
Finally got around to walking the beach at sunset last night. It was cold (ha ha… I know my definition of cold is way off) There was a brisk wind but it felt so good to be there. The sunset was not dazzling but it was still beautiful. And I was so glad I had gone down. I’ll be down there EVERY night from now on, I hope (except when it’s raining which is most likely tonight!)
I wrote up a schedule of my coming Spring Adventures. In general, it’s goes like this:
March 18 Leave Florida
March 20 Begin tests and doctor visits (EKG, echocardiogram, PET scan, endoscopy and biopsy, CT scan)
Weekends in Late March….Erin’s house
April 3 surgery
April 8 Out of hospital (some time around then)
April 22 Leave Houston for Erin’s
May 3 Alannah’s First Communion
May 4…..head back to Florida
May 6 Arrive in Florida
Okay, we all know…People plan, God laughs…We’ll see if it all goes according to plan.