Choosing to be happy isn’t always easy but it is possible. I don’t remember ever feeling as weak or pathetic as I’ve been feeling for almost a week. It will be a week, tomorrow, since I left Houston and headed home. What a week! Still I choose to be happy. (How could I NOT be happy? I live in Paradise.)
I knew it wasn’t going to be easy. Well, actually, I didn’t know. I thought maybe I would dodge that bullet entirely. But, hey, compared to lots of people I met, I had it soooo easy for soooo long. This is nothing.
I called the doctor today (so much for waiting until Monday) I’ve been losing a pound a day (a dieter’s dream) and thought I’d better find out if there was some way to get more food in me that would stay down. Losing weight, not keeping any food down, getting weaker and weaker…this is NOT my best week.
Anyway, I’ve got a new pain prescription (it’s the swallowing that kills me) and that should help. Jerry is going to run out after supper for it. Both Kevin (Dr Ho’s PA) and Ariceli (my contact for the study on side effects) said that A. They had warned me and B. I’m doing way better than they expected. I said I know they warned me. That’s why I wasn’t worried. I just wanted to make sure I was doing everything I’m supposed to be doing.
They both also said that I need to rest but I also need to be up and moving as much as possible. (I know, I know) So I guess I’m doing what I need to be doing and things will get better (Already better today…was up and about for at least two hours before I turned into a couch potato AND haven’t thrown up all day!!!)
Still haven’t made it to yoga. Still haven’t even driven the car around the corner. Still haven’t gone for a walk that is longer than fifteen minutes (ten is better) But I know things are getting better and I know I’ll get stronger and stronger each day.
Nina Tepper, a good friend from the Western Mass Writing Project and from Holyoke Pubic Schools (my first “reading buddies partner…my kindergarteners and her sixth graders) recommended a CD called “Prepare for Surgery, Heal Faster”. It has several relaxation/visualization sections to listen to on a regular basis before surgery. I just started listening and it’s wonderful. I’d recommend it to anyone who’s facing any kind of surgery. I got the book for my kindle…reading that next (Right now I’m reading The Good Lord Bird by James McBride. Just started it and think it will be good.)
Check out my shirt in the photo below. It’s from good friends of ours in Phoenix, Arizona. Their daughter designed it for a good friend who had cancer. Slow people like me have trouble figuring things out. I kept saying E-F-F Cancer….As I said, I’m slow. I’ll wear it to yoga and see if anyone there is as slow as I am.