Oh My

imageWell I can’t say they didn’t warn me. The last week of treatment and the following week are supposedly the roughest weeks, even for people like me who have been sailing through everything. Bet it’s to keep me humble, to remind me not to be so smug,  and to give me a taste of what some people go through from the get go.   Can’t swallow too well, nauseated, vomiting,  weak (I did make the stairs at the proton center but just barely).  It’s kind of  what I had expected throughout ALL my treatment.

Good thing I did most of the packing already.  Jerry may have to do the rest and load the car. Or. MAYBE I’ll make a comeback on the next few days and will go back to feeling “perky” by this afternoon .  I plan on napping during chemo today,  that’s for sure.

I need to look good even if I don’t feel good.  Cancerwise is publishing another blog post…the one about what did I do that caused all this. They want more too  and they want their photographer to shoot some photos  before chemo. (I should have just given them the ones Deirdre shot ). Anyway I put on my makeup this  morning, ruined it throwing up, and with with tears and snots (aren’t you glad you’re reading this?) said screw it and rushed out to 6:00am proton.   I should have brought my makeup bag with me…just didn’t think of it because we were running late.  I do have a lipstick and I do have a sweater (stolen from Erin) that makes me look hot.  Maybe people will look at my boobs and tiny waist and forget the bags under my eyes (that they will hopefully photoshop right out)

Enough whining.  Things that have gone right today…

1.  Even in the midst of wicked fog at 5:30 am and a car going the wrong way on the ramp to the freeway, we did NOT have an accident on the way to Proton.

2.  The nurse who took my blood this morning was funny and fun to gab with.

3.  I’m in my favorite place at Anderson (the Park) soaking in the beauty of it all.

4.  With the exception of makeup, I think we remembered everything for chemo (blanket, iPod, iPhone, iPad, laptop, Kindle) We always come prepared to live here indefinitely.

5. Jerry is still fine  I’ve told him that every ache, every pain, every cold, every thought he ever had about breaking an arm or leg needs to be put on hold until I’m well…and then I swear I will wait on him hand and foot for the rest of my life.

Happy Monday.  Love the quote at the top.  The one on the left here is perfect for today.  The one on the right reminds me not to call myself a lazy bum who lives on the couch and doesn’t lift a finger to help anyone.  I try to say very nice things to myself all day long.  I am my own personal cheerleader 99% of the time.  For the other 1% I need everyone else.

Perfect for today

Perfect for today



24 thoughts on “Oh My

  1. Oh Mary, so sorry to hear you’re having such a rough day. Sending warm hugs your way. Wish I could be there just to hold your hand.

  2. Oh Mary, I’m so sorry you are getting hit with all the cancer “yucks” at once! Throwing up sucks, doesn’t it? Here’s a make-up tip: you can use your lipstick as a blusher, too. I do it all the time. Just dot it on your cheeks and rub it in. Voila! rosy cheeks that match your lips. Good to hear some things are going right…like avoiding an accident! Love both the quotes. Can’t wait to see you both!

  3. Stay strong, girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You have a lot of prayers and happy thoughts flooting around you all of the time! It is alright to feel a little sorry for yourself sometimes. That’s ok! Iif you didn’t, we would think you are weirder than you are. har har
    Take care. You are almost there!\

  4. So sorry you are having this tough period, Mary. Quotes are perfect, as always – enjoy the Park – glad the darn car going the wrong way didn’t cause trouble. Yikes. Packing early was great planning . . . You are wonderful without makeup! Love, Barb G.

  5. Love you and love the quotes, sayings!! Breathe, breathe, breathe-that is what I am doing in your honor at this moment. Also, sending some peace, love and light. Feeling the challenges and hoping to carry some of it for you or, at least, share the journey for a few moments with my breathe. Also, will walk the beach this afternoon and, hopefully, send some its’ energy your way. A deep inhalation and a gentle release of my breath. Linda

    Sent from my iPhone

  6. oh, Mary, SO sorry to hear it. Throwing up sucks (as Martha says) any time at all, but when your throat is hurt and not good, it’s gotta be even worse. Hoping it improves dramatically and soon. Easier now to picture the bad guys getting wiped out. Sending gentle hugs and good healing wishes, thoughts. And strength to you both. Hurry home to the wonderful sunshine.

  7. Oh Mary…so sorry….you’l get through it, I know. Take care of yourself. No one minds taking care of you….they really don’t …..

  8. Only you could make having cancer sound like a stand-up comedian’s set. You are awesome my friend. I’m convinced it’s the teacher in you. You know – The show must go on and I will motivate anyone in my path.
    Kudos go to Jerry today. Dealing with tears and snots before 6:00 a.m. is putting him in the super hero category.
    I’m praying things improve as the day goes on for both of you. Stay strong.
    Love ya,

  9. Mary, Mary, how we would love to lighten your burden! Just hang in there! You seem to be an expert in turning lemons into lemonade. Your quotes are great! Be angry, be sad– just be you, my dear friend.

  10. You have to have done bad days to make you really appreciate all the good ones. Plus you’ll have bragging rights when you’re all done with treatment. A story that starts with “every day was sunshine and roses” will never elicit any sympathy.
    Hang in the there. You’ll get through this (and still look hot!)

  11. The hair quote is perfect for most of my friends! Sorry the reaction has worsened. Will it lessen when u finish treatment? The weather has turned here & were slated for perfect FL weather for a few days! Hang in thee lady…remember, we’re with u!

    Sent from my iPad


  12. Every one is cheering for you, Mary! Hang in…almost time to head back to Florida. Prayers are still with you, and Jerry…what a great man.

  13. Mary,
    You have another thing to be grateful for…you don’t look anything like the “you can’t control everything”. Loan her one of your wigs, ok?
    As far as puking, it only proves you are not in the placebo trials…hang in there…

  14. And at the end of the day, and in spite of the puking and smeared makeup…you are still our hero!! Hang in there, woman. We’re clutching with you!

  15. IT’S THE LAST CHEMO, RIGHT? What a milestone! No wonder you’re throwing up, you’ve got to expel all that junk. Let the healing begin, Cancer Vixen!

  16. Love what Nina and Mary H. wrote. No placebo trials and you are expelling the cancer bugs. Hang in there …. We are praying for you both. This, too, will soon be behind you!

  17. Deirdre Christman

    Despite how crappy you feel, you can still find funny quotes to send to your friends??!!! I’m so sorry you’re going through this miserable treatment, but so thankful to have you as a friend, showing me the way to deal with anything life throws at you. I still have those glamourous photos of you and can email to you any time if you want them. At the very least you can see where you were – and where you’ll be before long.

  18. Now you know for sure, your chemo was no placebo. You are strong. I’m with Nina Metz, “Let the healing begin!”

  19. I’m so sorry it was such a tough day! Praying tomorrow is a much better one! It’s good we don’t know God’s plans ; He’s full of surprises. Hugs, Jane

  20. I’m sorry that you have to go through this. I hope this phase passes quickly. Rest up for that drive home. Love the hair picture! Thanks for the laugh. Hugs, Gina

  21. Good Morning Mary, so sorry to hear that the side effects got you but just remember, the treatments are almost over! It’s warm and sunny here so keep that picture in mind….you’ll be back on the beach before you know it! Sending many good wishes….see you soon! Pam G

  22. Hey Mary-Love your quotes, especially the one about some days you just have to get up and put one foot in front of the other (and I’ll add, have faith things will get better). At least you are almost done with the treatments, and you’ve been so brave, funny, and upbeat (and still have managed to offer kindness to me, thank you). As always, my thoughts are with you, Carol PS Let’s see a picture of you in Erin’s sexy sweater-I’m sure you look hot!

  23. wendie@jimhighsmith.com

    M-Hope you are feeling better, better, better.

    We are now in Venice. Gorgeous weather. We are getting it ready for you.

    I have found I entered your phone number wrong in my phone. And do not have a number here for Geri, Trevina or Susie. What a flake.

    Do you have a massage therapist here you like? Mine is managing the new Evergreen Resaurant on 41 with her husband . No more massages.

    And do you have a plumber here you trust? our pipes need to be redone on the house–before we can go forward.

    Take much care, Wendie

  24. My goodness, talk about a profile in courage, and still enumerating the things that are going right…. You’re almost done with this part—you’ve done so well and if it’s not fun any more, so what. Soon you’ll be on the other side of this. You found the best quotes for all of us—but the hair one is truly humbling!

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