Today I had my usual proton at 6:00. At 10:30 I went to a workshop run by the American Cancer Society called “Look Good, Feel Better.” There were about ten women there….all ages. We learned how to tie scarves and choose different head coverings. Then we had makeup lessons. Lots of fun with lots of wonderful women. One arrived straight from chemo, rolling her IV pole and drugs along with her. One was a stunning African American young woman who said she never wore makeup. I told her it was because she didn’t NEED to wear any. She looked gorgeous (and was in the middle of treatment…had a wig you would NEVER guess wasn’t her hair) There were people there from all over the country…many fortunate, like we are, to have family in the area. Ninety minutes of laughing, fussing around, trying to look good…it did make me feel better
Good thing because the last two days have been less than fabulous. I know I’ve had it easy and even on my “worst” days, what I have is fairly easy. The last two days have been not so great….stomach ache, hard to swallow, jittery and unsettled, tired, sore throat, vague headache, short of breath after climbing the stairs…Nothing that doesn’t happen to any of us at any given time no matter how healthy we are. I just am so aware of every little thing. That’s why the workshop was so wonderful. I totally forgot how I was feeling for ninety minutes.
Feeling “not great” didn’t stop me from doing what I wanted to do yesterday either. I went out with Anne to visit an elderly woman that she brings Communion to once a week, a dear woman who, once she found out that her shortbread cookies were the something I could get down (when I first arrived and again now) hasn’t stopped baking them for me. She’s a woman of deep faith and it was a privilege to be in her presence. I’m so glad Anne brought me along. I also walked a mile (not 2 1/2 like I was doing earlier) Guess I’m slowing down.
More things on the calendar. Most likely my surgery will be April 3 or April 4…a little later than I expected or hoped for. Erin is coming down to be with Jerry during my surgery. Sean is coming later to help bring me home from the hospital (and wait on me!) when I’m back at Anne’s. I have to admit the surgery scares the hell out of me so I’ve stopped reading about it. I thought I was okay but the other night I could not fall asleep and I think it was because I couldn’t get the surgery out of my mind. Time to let that go and not cross that bridge till I come to it.
Tomorrow we’re meeting Linda and Ron Orum, fellow Floridians, sort of related to Judy Eckroth (yoga) They’re her son-in-law’s parents. They’re at Anderson too. We’re meeting in the Park right after I meet with Dr. Ho. I’m looking forward to seeing them. Meeting people here has been a wonderful POC (perk of cancer) There are so many strong, vibrant, interesting people in this world, aren’t there?